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cny eve

2012-01-21T22:43:00.000-08:00

for most of chinese

tonight will be the night best for their family

reunion dinner, laugh and play, everything happy

different for me

we have all the same as others but

mine will be nothing as usual even less than nothing

certain part of it that no one will understand

again i am asking why?

how i wish i won't have any related with that two

they are giving me a fucked up life

they screwed up everything

just thought of me as a selfish ever person

i don't wish them to have relates with me

i don't give a fuck for them

whatever they want to do, go ahead but please

get yourselves out of me

i don't need you all to bother

let me be

if i am the wrong one, at least i will be happier

to without all this

i might having a good tough life

not a suffered tough idiot of a damn life

consider me as the one that selfish enough please.

life is fucked

2012-01-20T08:34:00.000-08:00

that's tonight

having my winter of the time

i will remember what you did

your shouting, your movement, your behavior

everything seem hurt but there's a thing

i will no longer the one that you know

yes, i fucking hate the way i am

this is not a warm summer. never.

365 days of winter included with winter storm

this is how i survived here

enough of tears

enough of everything

i don't have enough of brave to end them

its certain of stupid to think so

sorry that i wish my life will be short

i tried to run away from the mess

somehow i found i have nothing

none of the place i can go for

none of the people which i can really believe and rely on

from one point to another one point

at last, i still no choice but back to the hell

that's tonight

finally i understand i was so superfluous

the world can't even suit me

and i have lost the meaning of myself.

it's me

2012-01-12T02:00:00.000-08:00

people change for one of two reasons

they either have learned a lot, or they have been hurt too many times

dear Angel,

you know you hate of changes

you know you don't like your current life, however you are not hating them

people change and things go wrong

always remember, life goes on no matter what

everything happens for a reason

we changing because we can feel

follow the path you think that is right, never think too far.

first post of twenty twelve

2012-01-05T08:47:00.000-08:00

this post, first post of twenty twelve

i suppose to post something that was chilled

than something out of expectation

this is a new year

i should let myself happier than the previous

as usual

normally whenever i update my blog

there will be sad post instead of happy one

again and again and again

i lose to myself

i really have no idea how i gonna continue to walk through the journey

whenever i feel my life better

there is something to spoil it

whoever can understand me? no one.

no one can really know how i feel and live even myself

i started to lost understanding of myself

why am i must be different compared to the other?

i don't know how to tell my story

to make me feel better and tougher

im lost again

fuck my life fuck my idiot mutherfucking life!

hell world.

run

2011-11-14T07:02:00.000-08:00

makes it so hard not to cry

i wish i could running away

from the current life

i have had enough of myself and all

a kind of place

to some people, it might be heaven

to me, this is hell

because mine was totally different from others

can someone please understand how i feel?

can someone please care the way i am living right now?

i have already feel tired of everything

it put tears on my face

sometimes, just wish i am the one who away

going to rainy

2011-11-12T22:28:00.000-08:00

i'm not as strong as thought

just an ordinary girl

but i know i can overcome everything

that's the rules

i know there's a woman always in needs of me

she has nothing anymore, only me

i can't let her down

she is my inspiration

yesterday, today, tomorrow

no matter how

this is still my life

i need to continue walking through every difficulties

trying to survive like the same everyday

she loves me

don't ever wasted every of her love towards me

once again i have woken up

i don't mind if FOREVER ALONE.

mind

2011-11-11T23:14:00.000-08:00

i wanted to say

to post everything in my heart here

but there's too many

how could i

i guess i will be wasting my time again

i don't even know where to begin

to start telling all the ugliness of my life

such a failure

i don't dare to tell

like a coward

i don't know myself anymore

lost.

imy

2011-10-19T23:51:00.000-07:00

dear daddy,

do you know i miss you as always?

even though you were already not here for 4 years and more

i was never used to it

when i feel like calling you but i knew i will never get responded back

from you

God has been taken you away from me

but you are the one who made me go strong

i miss you dad

i will always go stronger and more to achieve what i want

and to take care of mom

day before October

2011-09-30T07:39:00.000-07:00

hello

i am back again

i realize i might been an emo girl

most of my post for blog

it was like about sadness or life

yea right

life is tough

learn it before you live it

i might have passed through a lot before i came here

i mean what i think about my value of life

tonight

another night

i forced to stay alone at a place of stranger

it's kinda awkward

if i am the one before me right now

but no more for current

i did enjoy this for certain time

but what i hate is

what i am thinking when i have chance to be alone

again, life is tough enough.

dear September

2011-09-13T04:30:00.000-07:00

it should be a while since my last updates.

as what i always think

life is full of challenges and changes of course

this September

the fourth semester of my studies

glad to meet some peoples in a year time before

one of the scenery of the road of my life

life is short

as what i always say

appreciation is very important

do stay and feel what is happening around

never let things to take over yourself

because we are the only one who can decide

i wish i will always remember my purpose

dear myself,

please remember the purpose you did everything

remember why you are here

how you surviving

what's made you so

don't ever forget it when you go higher

be tough

the voice in my heart, who knows.

without truth

2011-08-06T11:23:00.000-07:00

as what i always think

世上很少真的心

figure the word above out

before you did something out

think twice and carefully

whether you are real about it or not

maybe you're just too blur for what you're doing now

simply say that to a girl

you might success to some but fail to me

cause i am abnormal compare to most

don't be silly my dear

don't ever over think of yourself

your power, your heart, your love

to another person

you think that is love?

ain't true

at least that's for me, my own perspective

as what i have expected

you have get back her

as a friend of yours, wish you have a good life

she might be the right one

but pretty sure that I'm not.

it's not magic

2011-07-20T09:09:00.000-07:00

life would never be easy

i knew it

but i feel tired once again

i wish not to be alone

nevertheless, i know i will choose to face it all by self

crapped me.

scream

2011-07-13T09:48:00.000-07:00

obviously busying with them right now

assignments exams

again and again

2011-06-30T02:16:00.001-07:00

suppose to work because i have take the job post

but for certain reason

i have rejected it

maybe i was not in mood

with my fucking sick status

the world saddest thing is that you know you are useless and can't help anything to the one you loved

i hate my life, i hate my fucking tough life

can't i just be as simple as other?

somehow i wish the world have a kinf of potion

wish able to make me forget whatever is happy after i drink it

at least i feel my life would be better without happy

partially is my parent treat me too well from young

they gave me the best of best

only i feel my life is fucking mess and ruined

after dad's gone from my pretty fantastic life

30 June 2011

the day she feel she is the most helpless human being

nothing she could do

than teardrops from her eyes and start blaming the world

although she never blame it to be

la corda d'oro

2011-06-24T23:43:00.000-07:00

it's remind me of this anime

when i saw a youtube video of music instrumental

basically from the anime,

i love the blue hair guy who plays violin

and the purple hair who plays flute

because

they remind me of what dad has promised me

when i was young

he said to buy me a violin then teach me

but he don't have the chance

he only left me his flute without having the chance to teach me

bought me music keyboard

without teaching me completely

i love music

music is the key to our soul

for certain reason, i can't achieve something

i might only able to make it when i have the potential

this maybe a reason for me

but people, do appreciate what you having now

remind back

2011-06-22T09:38:00.000-07:00

now is not my time to play

i think i must have forgotten about this

i need to study seriously

not thinking about the ways to enjoy

i believe i should getting busier after this

assignments, exams

i shall get my heart back on studies

wong an gel

wake yourself from the dream

back to the reality of world please

stop paying for the enjoyment you have now

it's summer time

think about the time you have wasted.

get it over

2011-06-21T07:15:00.000-07:00

to be or not to be

i don't wanna think anymore

doesn't matter what's going on or how's thing going on

told myself

always think for yourself first

whatever

life is full of colours

though sometimes it will be black and white

i have get over it

everything back to normal but not last time

i should know what to do

why

2011-06-16T06:27:00.000-07:00

tonight, now

he is the reason i been so down

i don't know why

but he did makes me feel what i've feel now

maybe after i view his profile

saw what he post

three years before and after

i confused with what i am thinking

even with what i am doing

and why i feel so

the word 'i don't know'

best describes about me

i know i am escaping from everything

but is there anyone understand me?

please learn to forget me

No matter

2011-06-15T08:03:00.000-07:00

doesn't matter

doesn't matter for what has happened for today

i have a lot to blog

from morning until night in the moment

life is great to have friends

although today i really don't have such mood to enjoy

still, today was a great day

as all of us have the chance to gathering again

since long time ago

the older said

we will get to know more people as our age is older

the more incident and lessons to be learned

yes, i was moody

no matter how high today we are going

i know myself was not 100% enjoying it

sincere apology to my friends here

it was my first time being treated such way

i keep asking self to forget it

but i can't

maybe it is too sudden at that time

i think i need some time

we will still be good friends

well, today i skip my class

so i have no idea why i still going back to college

and i did something might be funny

i helps to direct videos for friends who working on their assignment

kinda L-O-L

then joined them to sing

this is not what i have planned because i decided not to go

but i did go as the result

might be a great yet freaking nice moment

if something not happened

by the way

this is my first time ride on ktm since i drive

last time, i will ride it occasionally when outing

we did a lot of funny things inside

just like the moment while we're still in highschool time

our time story

wow

that's enough

i have talked a lot for today

even brighter than the moon

2011-06-12T01:59:00.000-07:00

do you ever feel like a plastic bag

drifting through the wind wanting to start again?

i think i must be sick

as you are a reader of my dead blog

what you can see here is anything but without love

maybe because i know

LOVE IS SELFLESS NOT SELFISH

i know now is not the time for me to think about it

come on

we still have a lot of time and stuffs to do something we wanna do

eventually i have choose my way

to stop all this

because i know i was different from the other

maybe i am too old for my age

maybe i am a freak which i don't dare to have a try

maybe

maybe i am nothing too

nine years ago, the day daddy got sick

i know i am not the pampered girl anymore

now daddy has left me for four years

i need to be strong enough for what's called life

i won't forget all the ways i pass through and how's the way i go through

WISH I COULD REACH MY FIREWORKS OF LIFE

hello

2011-05-23T06:32:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since the last update

many things in me recently

but i am going to blog today

because i was sitting here alone at a cafe

the condition here is good to be alone

i can think a lot of stuff and matter which happening around

i ain't emo today

i feel today was really a great day

maybe because my mood wasn't ruin by people

Laugh-out-loud

or maybe my friend, Ashley

a girl who traveled alone to Singapore bravely

she made me think that alone doesn't really meant alone

someone people choose to be alone for certain reason

it depends to the person who decided it

anyway

i really mean to be very enjoying the moment

chill for those who was down now

live for tomorrow. (:

click

2011-04-25T03:37:00.000-07:00

will updated here.

my tumblr

http://angelwg.tumblr.com/

listen people

2011-04-21T10:53:00.000-07:00

updated HERE

http://angelwg.tumblr.com/

❤ you ❤ me ❤ the world

change - it's my very own slogan

2011-04-18T02:12:00.000-07:00

really should have a change

every aspect from my point of view

make it a secret

only me, the only one who know it

I'M SHORT AND GAINING WEIGHT

yes that's mean i am enjoying the day

no matter how my life would be

i am still the same girl same attitude

i love the fun i've made and i don't care it would be ugly

I WANT MY BACKGROUND FILLED WITH COLOUR

NOT BLACK AND WHITE ONLY

i can change

no matter how hard it may be

no matter what others say

i can change the way i want (:

of sudden

2011-04-04T08:29:00.000-07:00

i feel pain

i don't know why

but i did feel the pain in my heart today

it's hurt

so far so good

2011-03-05T07:33:00.000-08:00

well, i am living my so-called life of freedom

my midterm already done (:

THE BEST DAMN THING

i am young enough to say

oh, this has gotta be the good life

when you're happy like a fool, let it take you over

when everything is out you gotta take it in

I CAN FEEL THE FRESH AIR WAITING ME OUTSIDE

swollen because I cried.

2011-02-19T10:32:00.000-08:00

this is another night i will being so emo

i love the silence of the moon

so that i will not disturb others

i really want to say that

I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF EVERYTHING

what i need is actually a simple thing

a peaceful life

but i never have a dream come true

the world is so fake yet i have already knew it

I MISS MY DAD

nobody will understand my feeling

everyone will has their own background story

and every reason for what they're doing right now

different people different thoughts

I DON'T LIKE TO SHOW MY WEAKNESS

i always to be strong and stronger

because i know i cannot be the weak one

i have too many things that i need to bother

i can't choose to don't care

just as easy as many people told me even my dearest one

THEY ARE NOT ME

whenever i need someone to comfort me

i can't even tell them my problem

i am the only one who know what's going on

yet i don't have the strength to tell them already

i have been so tired right now

I CHOOSE TO SILENT AND EXPRESS ALL HERE

my playground is gone

2011-02-12T04:09:00.000-08:00

i love to capture

picture brings you a lot of memories

and even hope

but

dear God,

may i have a day without any worries?

i have no idea now

why i need to think of so many things.

dear God,

why i need to be so different compared to others?

i wish to live as normal as how the other lives

please give me a new day with new hope

dear God,

don't you know i have already tired with my day?

i feel tired of lies and more

i have had enough of this.

don't worry if you did, i was only to release my emotional energy here.

harlow

2011-01-31T09:05:00.000-08:00

promised to be-right-back

currently busying for everything. (:

happy chinese new year

have a prosperity year of rabbit!

no, don't be silly

2011-01-14T06:02:00.000-08:00

something that have prepared

even though don't have enough time

something that have been promised

of sudden turn it off

the kind of expectations

the kind of disappointments

just in between a second of the time

well, i learn to be silent

i choose to express my feeling here

because i really feel bad for it

the moody night

suitable rainy weather

exactly my mood.

the start

2011-01-07T06:03:00.000-08:00

imma start my busy life again

the sem started

and i have to work as well

so i think

i would not waste my time for now

life is tough

as well as mine

i think i have grown my mind up

finally understand the real meaning of life

and the way to be a human being

simple post for current

promised to come back anytime

only just a dream

2011-01-03T02:47:00.000-08:00

you step into my day

to say hello to me

and just another second

then you say good bye to me

time to awaken from the dream

we are

2011-01-01T09:37:00.000-08:00

sometimes

we will know it

we will understand it

by the time

we don't need to tell the full details of something.

called

2011-01-01T09:30:00.000-08:00

L O V E

i mean it

i know she always and always love me

so am i.

another me

2010-12-15T03:02:00.000-08:00

Nobody understand me

I don't mind, even myself also not understand what I'm doing right now

I am wasting my time

I don't feel like talking to anyone anymore

I think I was fine to be alone

Sometimes it's not a worse thing to be alone, especially for people like me

I don't need other to know and understand what I'm thinking right now

It is hard to understand or try walk into my world

I don't want to increase the burden of the others

I never think to explain or to tell

I was fine.

I think once again, I have changed

Certain me still same but pretty sure there's something not same like previous me

Life goes on without waiting

No point to depend on other, the only way is count on yourself

Do regret of wasting so much time that I can't chase them back

Enough.

Happy

2010-12-08T03:04:00.000-08:00

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose, you can't have everything
Don't you take chances, you might feel the pain
Don't you love in vain 'cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side and watch this life pass me by
So unhappy, but safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground?

I gotta find my place, I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
'Cause I'm just trying to be happy, ya
Just wanna be happy

From the lyrics of Happy

by Leona Lewis

the song which always remind me.

finally

2010-12-07T21:14:00.000-08:00

done my last paper

seriously,

i need a job right now

I AM OFFICIALLY BROKE.

changes

2010-12-04T00:04:00.000-08:00

for a gift of December

i changes my hair colour, i want a different me

for a different challenge

of my different life

dec

2010-12-03T23:57:00.000-08:00

dear December,

MERRY CHRISTMAS.

BRB

2010-11-18T23:26:00.000-08:00

BUSY BUSY BUSY

BE RIGHT BACK AFTER A WHILE

I'M TRYING TO TURN MY CURRENT LIFE

INTO

GOOD LIFE

beautiful night

2010-11-18T06:31:00.000-08:00

the wind blows all through the night

need supports

2010-11-17T19:01:00.000-08:00

Am I protecting myself?

forget it. I don't want to think too much anymore

there's a thing and only thing that matters

if you're my close friend, you will definitely know it.

Finally I was fine with UCSI

I have got myself familiar into it

in a semester time.

fake smile

2010-11-12T23:14:00.000-08:00

I'm not happy.

my life was like already been fated to live so

if i was given a chance, may i request God for giving

my daddy back

I'm not wishing for anything more.

the most precious thing in the world is the love between human

no matter it was between parent, siblings, friends, the one you love and even a stranger

once you lose it, everything will gone.

I LOSE ALMOST EVERYTHING

if daddy was still here

all my worries are nothing

all my tears are from my happiness

all my problem are not problem anymore

but i do not have the chance

it ended at Valentine's in 2007.

I

2010-11-12T23:02:00.000-08:00

i saw something that hurts me actually

i will keep that as my secret

no matter how

i wish i never saw it

i wish i never miss anything from them

i know i lose all of them

because i know

i will always be the minor character among them

i never feel bad for it

i never blame anything

i never leave although i know i was not important

i will silent myself

i will keep it as secret.

changes

2010-11-09T05:54:00.000-08:00

i wanna live in the world of colour full

i need changes
for everything of life
for myself, for my dearest, for my future.
i never compare myself to the other
but i want improvement in my life
even for my own attitude.
no one is perfect in this world
as long as we did our best, it will never be wrong.
this is me
i learnt something very new and i knew what i should do now.

mood

2010-11-07T07:17:00.000-08:00

I FEEL SAD
7.11.2010
MY PHONE WAS STOLEN.

I'm lose

2010-11-02T07:43:00.000-07:00

i lose everything, i have nothing
sometimes
i wonder what is the value in my life
at times
i feel like an empty soul

i can't even differentiate a smile
a real smile
i don't mean to have a special life for myself
but dear God
please let me stop my tear
i don't want any tear for my life already

i wish i could turn back the time
the time where everything still fine there
the time i own something very precious
from all the aspects of life
life should have birth, death, love and pain

i think i already know them well.

opposite me

2010-10-30T04:58:00.000-07:00

forget the past
work for the future
i learnt something very new

I want a clock with mixed-up numbers
to be a completely opposite me
what am i fighting for in this world is so tiring

I have a pair of ears that don't listen to anyone's commands
to enjoy the happiness and freedom in me

I want to become a transparent rock
I won't move
It won't hurt either

random

2010-10-29T09:39:00.000-07:00

i kinda love my uni life now. very random us.

be ready bitch

2010-10-28T05:58:00.000-07:00

Be Right Back for Sure (:

part one

2010-10-23T10:26:00.000-07:00

sometimes
pictures can tell the story
and it captures the best time in life.

part two

2010-10-23T10:19:00.000-07:00

went out for the whole day
after the MS Midterm
that's my college day for now.

try

2010-10-20T04:45:00.000-07:00

learnt a lesson

a very precious one

life is cruel
know it since the day i need to depend everything on myself
to act as tough as i can
i just want to be happy in my life
where i want all my memories to turn memorable
no matter it should be sweet or bitter
enough with my current condition

i gotta find my place, i wanna hear my sound
don't care about all the pain in front of me
cause I'm just trying to be happy
i just wanna be happy

don't care what the others think about, this is all about me, the only me.

ain't easy

2010-10-14T04:41:00.000-07:00

NOTES AND BOOKS
i will try to hypnotize myself to in love with you
and
i need a lot of strength to mark each event on my to do list

updated my tumblr
http://angelwg.tumblr.com/

RIGHT NOW

2010-10-09T06:04:00.000-07:00

I DON'T KNOW
BUT I FEEL ALONE
I KNOW
IT'S TIME FOR ME
TO LEARN INDEPENDENT

I KNOW WHAT I NEED RIGHT NOW
BELIEVE YOURSELF
LEARN TO BE STRONG
FORGET ALL THE THINGS
TO WALK TOWARD THE BEGINNING

I WISH I COULD MAKE IT SOON

鍾舒漫 Sherman Chung - 給自己的信 A letter to myself

2010-10-02T23:18:00.000-07:00

what is trust

2010-10-02T22:48:00.000-07:00

could anyone tell me
how to trust a person and him/herself

IM LOST IN MY OWN WORLD. :/

glimpse of light

2010-09-26T10:36:00.000-07:00

trust yourself for what you persist
you will find your way through the darkness
i believe i would make it
maybe even just for a day
but at least i have try it before i do nothing

almost a month i enter UCSI
i feel happy to meet some new mates
whenever i go for a new condition, it always remind that the world is big
i am just a very small part of it
don't ever think you are smart as the other was much more better than yourself

i need
a strength to study
a confident for life
a heart to love
a trust for people

I'm currently living in my very own world with no colour around here.

mid autumn festival

2010-09-26T10:15:00.000-07:00

click HERE for more, make sure you're my friend (:

feel

2010-09-20T06:34:00.000-07:00

i hate to being alone
my problems seem like nothing to everyone
do you know
how was it when you can't feel your feeling at all

i don't know what is going on
a listening ear, someone with arms wide open
a heart eager to hear what i say and help in whatever way possible
are exactly what i need

i always told myself to be cheerful
it is still a beautiful world you're living
but
how to feel when you don't know how to feel
it was an empty soul

life

2010-09-17T07:57:00.000-07:00

add the colour for you own life
though sometimes it will be grey
but the world is not only black and white
we should choose to put the colour into it

don't ever give up
continue with the journey
this is who i am
as the hyperactive me
give the strength please
i will not giving up for my future life now

unfortune

2010-08-27T09:30:00.000-07:00

i was frustrated with everything.
first it comes to all the studies

but well,
i have settle down all early
cause i have lend of hand from friends
thanks all.

second it comes to the car
both car got some problem there
have to send for services
it makes mom don't really allow me for outing at night
i was only allowed to go alone if the place near
or with her companion.

for the last one
i really gonna burst
my fucking lappy was having bsod
Blue Screen of Death
need help from auntie's son

by the way,
i was told that grandma was sent to hospital
i don't know how was the condition now
waiting for brother to come back
hopefully grandma will be alright soon

laugh out loud

2010-08-21T08:02:00.000-07:00

LOL !!
playing together with him
silly me
he pinch me with his little hand
i'll get my revenge back !
stoooopid right? -.-

but he is cute and lovely for me
little Baby MC

start of something new

2010-08-16T08:52:00.000-07:00

well, i have nothing to blog now
since my days are filled with my job
i am bored
definitely you'll wish to work for more income when you were studying
but after some time you won't think so anymore.

my orientation day will be next week
and of course i will quit my job a day before it
because i was frustrated with it
i need a single time for myself to get ready as well
actually it was only a reason for me to be lazy

very soon
i have to go for the tough one
restart everything in my own self
please do always remind me that i can't able to be like the previous one
history cannot be repeat again.

self's reminder

survivor

2010-07-17T04:34:00.000-07:00

sometimes i just hate of being myself
the way i am was too weak and yet too tough
i am too weak to handle myself but just different for certain stuffs
i will not easily give up for the target i have set because everyone is different
they have their own little way to release their stress

sometimes the world is just too unfair
we got no choice to choose where we born to
therefore, we need to work harder to change current condition
no matter it was good or worse now
it is because once we own a stuff for a certain time,
we want more and better one

all the human are same
they own a heart of greed
the differences they can make between them are
depend on their attitudes, conditions and other
i can only say the only reason for human is survive.

never knew i needed

2010-07-07T00:20:00.000-07:00

well finally going to update here
i don't know what is my point for now
maybe i have already decide what to go for my life
everybody seems so busy for their own, opposite from me
i did nothing for this few months, except for cash. pointless

i never regret for how i go
i just feel like i am losing too many things right now
something that i cannot get back to it
the kind of feeling where you are regret but not

i am so speechless for my own
life like a drama
everyone got different story even though their background are same
the story will never end until you're gone
so we have to work hard for the better storyline until the end

seriously, i miss him
without him, i noticed the imperfection
the imperfection of life
but everything were gone after few years of happiness

visit tumblr

2010-06-09T07:08:00.000-07:00

updated
http://angelwg.tumblr.com/

check this out or
click ME

will be busy for this week (:

what i called

2010-06-06T21:05:00.000-07:00

enough.
sometimes i feel tired
but, i might have to keep on going for it
where i don't know when is the time for me to quit

in a same kind of condition,
i saw my reflection of the shadow
sometimes i think i was luckier than her
but honestly,
sometimes i also think the opposite way too
in the end
we're same actually.

now,
she finally start her life
which controlled by people
i can't help her anything
the only thing i can make it is just listen to her
stay beside her whenever she need my companion
to listen to her sad story.

good luck my friend
be strong for your journey of life.

wo ai ta - i love him

2010-06-05T10:13:00.000-07:00

His frivolousness stays in a certain car
The winds in the subway are heavier than the memories
The whole city has been waiting for me
There is still a relationship drifting along

The only regret is on the day he broke up
My rushing tears could not be stopped
If that moment happens again I will not cry
Let him know I can still be very well

I love him vigorously and most crazy
My dream relentlessly broken off but won't be forgotten
Believed that tomorrow is the future because of him
No matter how bad the circumstances I wasn't willing to wake up

I love him stumbling into despair
My heart is deeply hurt but will not forget
He and I no longer belong to this place
Initially a heaven, ultimately an absurdity

Even if there are still regrets so what?
Will I get better after being hurt, pained, understood?
Once relying on each others shoulder
Now just wandering separately in a sea of people

I love him vigorously and most crazy
My dream relentlessly broken off but won't be forgotten
Couldn't escape hurting each other as love becomes deeper
The deeper the dependence, the more blanks
How should we love?

I love him vigorously and most crazy
My dream relentlessly broken off but won't be forgotten
Believed that tomorrow is the future because of him
No matter how bad the circumstances I wasn't willing to wake up

I love him stumbling into despair
My heart is deeply hurt but will not forget
He and I no longer belong to this place
Initially a heaven, ultimately an absurdity

If there is an regret, it's on the day we broke up
My rushing tears could not be stopped
If that moment happens again I will not cry
Let him know I can still be very well

next stop, happiness

2010-06-04T05:01:00.000-07:00

autumn's concerto
it was a great Taiwan drama
finished all in two days

i am suffering now
i need a lot of sleep time -.-

lies

2010-05-29T07:15:00.000-07:00

i love staying inside the world of mirror

because it made a beautiful lie

than thousand of lies

by some others (:

live the life

2010-05-20T06:23:00.000-07:00

happy / upset
?

sense it ;D

though i don't really feel it

Reasons

2010-05-20T06:18:00.000-07:00

for each mistake i made, there are ten reason to forgive.

when you think of impossible, there are always hundred of reason to success.

for each upset moment, there will be another thousand of reason for you to be cheer again.

if you trying to end your life, there are too many reason to survive.

how you live your life and how many people could make it?

DO YOU ?

2010-05-20T06:17:00.000-07:00

every minute my age is older

every day my mood is different

every season my aim is changing

every year my wish is not same

but,

i don’t afraid of changes (:

changes

2010-05-16T08:23:00.000-07:00

already drive alone to work for more than a week
i miss the old memories much more than this
omfg, that's with all the laughter
i mean the school (;
although this is an easy job but i did feel bored all the time.

I AM STILL VERY SHORT ):
i want to grow higher even just a little bit higher
anyway, i accept the fact
many people told that i won't get higher anymore
i don't care whatsoever.
i want to be myself though it was not so perfect
from all the terms

hello

2010-05-08T11:02:00.000-07:00

another new thing

http://angelwg.tumblr.com/

or you may view it by clicking HERE
stay tuned
while i am busying with my little stuffs (:

ohh darling i wish you were here

2010-05-08T01:31:00.000-07:00

Love is a kind of need, a kind of lack of.
This make everyone of us like love songs.
Regardless of love which is in progress or not yet, whether you love him more or he loves you more.
Love or being loved are actually a kind of joy <3
There is a kind of pain where you want to see but do not dare to see.
There is also a kind of love which is buried in my heart.
I can only put you inside my heart.
This kind of want to see and not to see make me miss you more and more concentrated.
I only can just put you inside my heart.

my loves my fate

2010-04-25T22:49:00.000-07:00

my blog has been dead for some little time

i was lazy to blog

anyway, i am going to say thank you to all my darls

23/4/10

counting down for my day

they gave me a surprise at night which is not that surprised
i knew it by certain little thingy they did

forget my blur sick face on that day

it would be my sweet sweet 18th !

24/4/10

few hours before my day pass

another surprise from another beloved

a night where we all get to lose our voices

surprised by them because i didn't get any clues that time

back to bed at 3 a.m ++

thanks for the birthday wishes from all the people

via website, message and call

especially those who call from a distance

thank you for all the thing you guys did for me.

baby baby baby ohhhhh

2010-04-18T09:19:00.000-07:00

the way i spent my time nowadays

baby baby baby ohhhhh

i can't even find a job

or actually should i say i am lazy to work ?

yessss i think so

i found many jobs that suit me but i don't want :P

my pocket with a big hole now

i don't dare to spent money for this certain time

end up with today

a wish

2010-03-31T00:02:00.000-07:00

if i was given a wish, i will make it so i got no worries for my life
and of course with mom as well
although sometimes we did argue with each other
i know she's still very love me and did everything just for me
thanks for her supports of what i choose for my way
i will not going to waste my time like what i did last time
now i know, i can trust no one except myself
what i will get on future is what my prove to them
never going to give them a chance to pull me down
they got no more chances to see it
because i will not going to be silly anymore
keep those words for your own and think for what you all did

finally, my problems already settle down
people don't give a chance but God did
i will not dissappoint mom anymore
though i was still upset for them, those who close to me when young
thanks for loving me so many years and treat me well when i was a baby
it was fine if both of you not support me because of some certain reasons
which was the selfish of you all
i got my own plan now
anyway, i just need myself to carry them on
no matter how hard my future will be
thats all my business because i choose it myself

Down With Love

2010-03-23T00:49:00.000-07:00

also known as Just Want to Depend on You

believe it or not

i finished this taiwan drama in 3 days

and mom as well !

LOL

i got nothing to post recently

i am too bored

and i am too lazy to blog now

i got more things that important to do

so this will be the last drama for this 2 months

i wish everything will be settle down

as what i want and what i need too

God, please help me and give me some strength

BYES

WILL BE BACK SOON

all over me

2010-03-15T07:49:00.001-07:00

what you want me to do?

i am telling you with peace

but you reply me with all your temper

can you just listen once for me

this is all about myself

since you told me that you have your own business

so i decide to do it by myself

just myself

no matter how hard my way will be

at least i decide it by myself

even if i regret for it in the future

but at least i deserve it because i never listen to you

and i dont think i will regret

for what i want

i will try harder so that i will happy for my choice

not your choice

you will never listen to others

but yourself

i am not childish for making this decision

this is what i need to do as my position for her

i know

although there is something offensive

but without her

i am not myself anymore

i swear if i never shout this out

totally will be mad

-the only hope-

a reminder for myself

and why i must did it all the way

decide the way

2010-03-13T08:40:00.000-08:00

watch this today evening :D

one of my favourite childhood story from Disney

not bad but also not that good

back to edufair

already made my mind for the course that i want

but not the college

what am i doing there?

going to be crazy

spending money is what i love to

but when you finish all the cash

you will start worrying and regret for it

happy when spending

worry when finish up

arghhhhh!!

cash is so limited where it can never fulfil all our wishes ):

simple

2010-02-26T21:50:00.000-08:00

the simple me

just hope for a simple thing

a simple care from my beloved

a simple true story

everything simple was just enough to become special

all the time

all the memories

all the moment just like a drama

now its time for the ending

a new story will start again

be happy for the changes

this is what we called as life

i'll never be the same

the same personality of me

if we ever meet again

little gift

2010-02-18T00:49:00.000-08:00

white gold necklace with cross pendant
what i spend with my whole salary of 2 days job
this pendant is simple but it can wear on both side
there's different pattern on each side
i love this when i first saw it but im not buying for myself
this is a little stuff that i buy for my mom (:

hope she will be happy to receive it <3

SMILE :D

2010-02-10T07:07:00.000-08:00

MONEY MONEY MONEY

cash is what i got now
not too much but not less as well
two days of work pay me two hundred
additional of cash from my family
and i think enough for me to put some new shirts for my closet
big smile on my face right now
have spend over hundred just for today right after my job
BUT I DONT CARE MUCH :p

no girl will always say enough for their shirts in the closet

TIME

2010-02-06T09:48:00.000-08:00

what suppose to be happy and to be upset for

and so whatever i used to think last time and now

I DON'T CARE MUCH

i am so confused with all this around

learn a lesson that time is so precious and you do regret for wasted it

i am so lazy to call myself to think all this

plan always change right so why i need to think it off

everything just let them run as what you thinking now

either you want it or you give up

i choose myself. changes made me learn to be tough enough for certain stuffs

all did nothing wrong but the time and place

nobody will understand the post today because i don't hope to let others know except me

sorry that a lot of rubbish i crapping here

no recent post because lazy to blog

no pictures because lazy to take when outing

i ain't emo and i hate to be emo

changes

2010-01-12T07:03:00.000-08:00

seriously, i feel like bang my head to the wall if not pain
i need time for myself
my plan before NS have changed
everything seem like not going to follow my mind to make it
never mind then i change
although i really don't want it to be.
no choice because i learnt a lesson
nothing will really go as what you want it to go
lot of crapping but this is what in my mind now ):

problem :
still haven't go for undang lesson and not even call the guy yet
never go for searching job
planned my studies but still in half way
which courses and which college ? headache

somebody steal mummy's wallet that day and she lost many things including IC and license
what to do now is i have to accompany her to get her new IC and license as well
why the hell all this must happen on the same time ?
totally lack out of energy to solve all the problems
i do solve it before today
but seems someone just ruin my mood just now
i need support from family
but i know they are not giving me especially HIM
forgive my childishness for thinking so
but my future, i want to make it myself (;

my wish (:

2010-01-09T07:18:00.001-08:00

1 -Swatch Infinity-

a MP3 player, a video player-recorder and album photo of course Swatch is a watch too (:

2 -Hello Kitty MP3 Player-

comes in just 2GB and 4GB storage varieties, with a USB cable, ear buds of course, and a cute little lanyard for attaching it to things like your beltloop and can even change the Kitty's hair decoration accessories, alternating between gold flowers and a gold bow.

3 -Hello Kitty Action DJ Speaker-

plug in your iPod, CD player, or any other portable MP3 player through a headphone jack and watch Hello Kitty bob her head back and forth while manning the turntables.

<3 all this three stuffs. this is what i want now especially Swatch Infinity (:
love Hello Kitty although don't like pink. hope that nothing gonna change my mind.

NS

2010-01-09T00:12:00.000-08:00

alright ! Friday back from NS (:
just cannot describe my feeling there
but i will miss all my new friends that i met there (;

i hate my skin for allergy to the water there ):
but i still happy for it that i can back home
:D home sweet home :D
not that only,
i feel dizzy everyday and vomit every time after i have my meal
and other sickness that made me go into hospital as well
i am so sick ):

after NS
i think i need a job now.

byes ):

2010-01-01T03:46:00.000-08:00

will be back during Chinese New Year

good bye to all my friends
byes darlings <3
i miss my mummy very very much !!
always miss the moment with all of you (:

new year new style

2009-12-30T07:33:00.000-08:00

changed my hairstyle back like few years ago
say goodbye to 2009 and welcome 2010
2009 give me a lot of memories with my friends. i miss them. i miss the time we together.
2010 prove that i have to be smart enough to overcome all the problems.
i think i have made up my mind. plan that i planned should never tell others until the last (:

have the medical check today.
should be my lucky day that i don't really wait very long to finish it
but i do hate the female doctor. uncivilized human. upset for her (:
finally, everything for NS done except for packing.
please..
scare for sunburn in the morning
scare the mosquitoes and insects. really don't like it specially for insects.
anything until i get to know that place ):

new year eve >> singing
Happy New Year to everyone :D

3 months before NS

2009-12-29T08:05:00.000-08:00

tomorrow will go for medical check and nothing special could happen
i don't think i can escape from going there
NS just once in our life
i wish that able to enjoy there though i know it is a little bit hard for me
no matter how 3rd of January 2010
i will leaving home early in the morning and head to PD

haven't prepare and pack all my stuffs
think i still have little time for new year 2010 with family
or them ?
i don't know
i wish everything still remain the same when coming back for Chinese New Year (:

18 years old turn everything harder and not cheaper
have to continue studies or find a job
pressure of myself
no more student card for sing
say goodbye for certain and many others ):

christmas eve 2009 (:

2009-12-24T09:16:00.000-08:00

alright (:
i watch ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS 2 already
again i love the 3 chipmunks specially THEODORE - the fat, sweet and lovely one <3

nowadays i love spending money
my money just flow away like water ):
i have to prepare for Chinese New Year's shirts because i got no time to buy
where i have to go for NS next Sunday
wtf. i haven't buy things to bring for NS and go for body check in the hospital.
should be done all this things next week.

i love shopping and spending my money (:
next week might go for shops.
i have something that i cannot tell because this is bad.
i think everything will be alright after the 3 months of NS. PEACE (:
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE. BYES.

Genting - 19 DEC 2009

2009-12-21T00:19:00.000-08:00

NICE DAY WITH NICE FRIENDS (:

memories never back (:

2009-12-16T06:23:00.000-08:00

i miss the way we act
i miss the way we play
i miss the way we move
i miss the way we together
memories never come back ):

should i ?

2009-12-13T01:04:00.000-08:00

this is my daddy's flute
should i learn it during this time which i am too free to do nothing.
i just found it inside the drawer of my tv console.
piano or flute or saxophone ? seriously, i feel lazy to learn already but mom ask me to think about it.
or i should learn others that more fun ?

i want to do something new (:

next week activites : return the textbooks, sing k, friends, shops, ...

6 days to go before Genting (:
need cash right now to done all my activies above. besides, i still need to save some for Genting.
Christmas is coming and once again i realized that money is damn important for me.
GIMME EXTRA CASH PLEASE !!!

tonight : steamboat with family (:(:

the days

2009-12-12T00:22:00.000-08:00

hello everybody.
i kinda free for this days since i have finished up my exam.
i feel lazy to blog now cause i have nothing to do except wasting my time in front of my laptop.
i have plan things for my future but i don't know whether it will success or not.
next week will be nice for me to go out with them on 19 Dec 2009 since we already very long didn't go for a day with a lot of peoples around.

my current life : eating, outing, playing, watching, sleeping late at night (:

ohh i almost forgot that i still need to prepare for NS.
damn it !
but luckily i fall on first batch so i still able to continue what i want while waiting for SPM result.
i have not made up my mind yet but i guess i will going.
say goodbye to me on 3 Jan 2010 ! (:

SPM : The End

2009-12-07T05:48:00.000-08:00

GOOD BYE TO SMK SRI SENTOSA

graduation day

2009-11-13T01:04:00.000-08:00

finally we graduated from our high school !

I WILL MISS SMK SRI SENTOSA

thanks for all the school memories
waiting for the final exam which start next week
good luck and all the best wishes for me and friends (:

i need more cash for shops !!!
i want to shops immediately after the exam end when 7 of December